May 31st, 2021
My joints hurt. For some reason. Especially my ankles. Meow!
I keep daydreaming and it just reminds me how long Ive been doing this shit. Its so fucking shameful. I was daydreeamig about Aidan and us being friends, and I hate it. Its embarassing. Imagine telling people "oh, I have an addiction" and then they ask "oh drinking?" and im like "no, daydreaming". Years have been wasted due to this bullshit. My feet are sore. I wish I was dead. I dont wanna deal with this anymore.